Funeralfund: Online Donations, Crowdfunding for Funeral Expenses, Memorial Donations

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John and I met April 16, 1998. By April 22, 1998, we were living together and engaged to be married. On November that same year, we were married. We had our ups and downs. Like everyone does. We separated September 16, 2015. Though we were not living together anymore, I still loved him. I didn't get the chance to say goodbye to him. I wasn't told he was even sick. His girlfriend saw that I wasn't informed of his illness or his passing. Till like Monday night when his niece contacted me on Facebook. I am still in shock and greatly hurting. I want to thank everyone, for being there for John. When I wasn't allowed to be. I wish for everyone to know, that John was a very private person. I hope you all can forgive me, for not having a viewing. I am not going to be able to handle, this. I am truly sorry. The visitation service that was planned, wasn't what John would want. He had told me this many times. All he wanted is to be cremated and his ashes spread over a nice beach. This is exactly what I'm going to do. If your mad then I can't help that. I'm barely able to keep my head on straight. My emotions are all over the place. I keep breaking down, and bawling my head off till, I fall asleep. I can't think, much less deal with a viewing. Again thank everyone who visited John and were there for him. When I wasn't allowed to be. I will always love him. I hope all of you can understand why I'm doing this. If you wish to help me pay for giving, him the send off he wanted. Just donate to this funeral fund.  I have no money and can't afford even this, simple thing I am doing for my husband. I don't know how I'm going to pay all of this off. I hope to find a way somehow. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I'm really going to need it for a good while.